Wednesday, October 03, 2007
haha it's been so long that i've nt updated!exams hav ended for me! the results were nt very good as wad i expected.those modules that im so confident of getting A all turn out to be B+.i was like damn shocked to see that.lots of C i gt too.however, my gpa increased by ard 0.07.at least i need nt de-prove?!thank God! phew~saddest thing of this yr is my attachment ingenome institute. i tot it wld be an enjoyable learning journey for mebut i got a very hard to please boss who's always shooting me.wif a doctorate, he's high up in position.i can't say anything.he's going to grade me for my attachment.so i jus had to swallow that shit thingy dw in my stomach.the first day i worked tgt wif him,i already was insulted til secretly cried in toilet.i dun mind saying out here.i m nt afraid of him to c tis.i m jus a student who haven't even get diploma.pls dun tink tt i'm as good as u, doc.i'm bound to make mistakes but im willing to learn.jus clean ur mouth and stop ur unedifying speech.wadeva it is, i wan to apologise to my boss for always being so blur n making mistakes.sorry.but i still tink that u shdn't get so agitated, impatient and harsh.i oso hav parents, same as you!im a learning student, just like you were. y can't u understand?!working in my department is like hell.i dun tink most of the ppl in my department earn my respect.to them, i m jus a quiet, ignorant n stupid girl.even if they giv me gold or silver,i dun tink i will talk much to them.everyday work is like me doing things alone.somethimes, i eat alone n go hm alone.but thanks alot to Holy Spirit,whenever i felt troubled, disappointed, sad,i will tok n pray. peace jus will flow into my heart.jus nw, my department jus had an internal conflict.They didn't talk things out properly and calmly.just shouted n quarrelled in the lab.GIS is rich n the lab is super big.from one end to another end,ppl were hearing them quarrelling.i m very ashamed to say that i belong to tis department.this is terrible!i dunno wad i can do n my heart wasn't calm at all.i jus cooled myself down.even though it doesn't involve me, i still feel super weird n disappointed.if u were me, i bet u wld too...imagine u hav to stay half a yr working in such environment n boss...with the boss to grade ur works...wow~i dunno hw to describe it.'wonderful'~tml my lecturer's coming down to meet us for a while.i tink i better tell him the situation.but i do not know wad's goin to become of me after i tell all these to him.tis morning, i read the prayer of Jabez in Word of God.i tink it's the best for me to pray like him too!God, You bless me and enlarge my territory!Let Your hand be with me, and keep me from harmso that i will be free from pain!In Jesus' name, Amen!all the best to tis department and the meeting tml!
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