Saturday, January 06, 2007
nw shall tok abt victorious year 2007!
on new yr eve,
i attended the retro party in church
wif my sisters.
all of us were dressed up
n on our way there, ppl were givin us weird stares.
wad's so weird abt it?
s'poreans are always 大惊小怪.
sam n charissa were dancing on stage again.
everyone's dressing was so cool!
mao called me to ask me to join him at esplanade now
to watch fireworks
but i was in church so i declined his invitation.
a bit sad cos cldn't make it to watch the fireworks.
but anyway, even if i cld go, no one would go wif me.
sad case~ T_T
hahahz~
den after the party,
sarah's dad sent mi n charis to yishun
cos it's very late.
tink goin to b 2 am.
i met up wif
mao, shuyun, joshua, jy, seraph n foster
at yishun mrt.
they told me to come n eat the left-over potluck party
under jy's block.
diaoz! cos gt park.
could go jogging or do QT in the park
in the middle of the nite.
hahahz~ cool har?!
all of them went off hm to settle everything,
leaving me, seraph and sy.
we went to buy supper
instead of havin potluck party
cos mao's family ate away all the food!
pengz~
now i understand y mao mao's appetite is always tt good
since sec 1! LOLz!
den everyone's back and rachael came too.
joshua, jy, rachael and mao played guitar.
sy and foster were singing.
seraph's zzz n i didn't know what to do
so i took up my project notes n did them.
jw and the rest were at on top,
gaming... wah! very good lor.
dunno hw to come down a while
to wish a happy new year.
they went hm ard 5 am.
foster sent me n rachael to bus-stop.
we took bus hm tgt.
btw, she stayed in the block next to mine!
hahahz~
okie, den tat day's afternoon
which was 1/1/07.
i went to sam's hse wif
mel, sherry and yvonne.
we were havin cell retreat for 2 days.
we had fun and nice time tgt!
planned goals for 2007!
hope every single goal can b achieved!
yup n i'm called to be sam's 12!
pressurized due to workloads.
everyweek got cell grp, fellowship time, service and SOL lesson.
disciple grp a.k.a G12 grp once every 2 weeks.
RL288 meeting once a month.
Tribe congre meeting once every two months.
mon to fri r sch days
n i need 2 days to work.
i'm quite afraid tat i cannt b a good leader
who dun hav enuff time for God.
i pray that God will anoint me and
help mi to overcome all the stress n fears!
sorry to all frens tt i may not b free all the time
to b goin out wif all of u.
on thurs nite, i attended overseas attachment talk
wif daniel.
i was interested in goin to hong kong as
i was inspired by the lady who ps. khong had mentioned
all the time, G12 church in hk and oso my favourite stars.
most importantly,
i felt that God is calling me to be there.
ppl jus tink that i jus want to be there for fun
but i can say it's definitely not.
i gt a strong feeling that God is calling me to go there.
i dunno y cos i'm not God
so dun ask me y at tis moment.
i'm still praying for financial needs
as i dun hav money to go over and
whether izzit God really wants me to go over.
i received a sms from jw.
tis is wad he typed:
James 1:12
"God blesses the ppl who patienty endure testing.
Afterward they will receive the crown of life that
God has promised to those who love Him."
Dun b discouraged when problems arise
for God knows everything.
i kept tis sms.
n yes! tis sms was certainly from God.
ytd, my aunt threw away the flowers
my sisters n frens gav to me on my baptism day.
i was upset cos they contained nice memories.
haiz~
the most upset was when i heard my aunt
tellin me that
my parents said that i was lazy n nv study, always zzz.
i know that i sleep a lot
but i did my best in everything i do.
how can they say tt i nv put in efforts for my studies
when i'm striving so hard.
ppl were gamin when i'm working.
ppl were zzz when i was up studying n doin hmwks.
i did all i can.
i know i'm not born intelligent or as a male
but i am who i am, uniquely created by the Creator.
y do my family jus dun support me at all.
y r they always discouraging me.
they broke my heart
cos they r the ones i love n respect.
i jus cried infrnt of jiawen
who's in my hse doin proj wif me.
i started to break down
when i suddenly jus rmb God's words in jw's sms.
den i stopped crying n went back to do proj.
i believe that small ppl who dream big dreams for God
are different and will b used mightily by God!
i will nv stop loving God
or stop the dreams i've dreamt for Him.
i dun wan to lie to anyone.
i'm very upset n heart-broken over tis matter
but i know God is using tis to teach me
and to grow in Him.
Hallelujah!
In the name of Jesus,
every word spoken to discourage me
is rejected!
went to work and saw a tuition pamphlet
on my student's table.
i tink they want to sack me.
haiz~ T_T
losing job means no income.
den believe it or not, i was on train,
returning from work.
i told God silently in my heart,
if He really wants me to go to hk,
den hav sumone to speak cantonese then.
immediately, a man infront of me ans his hp
and began to speak cantonese to his caller.
phew~
i'm still praying hard for tis
cos tis may not mean anything?
i'm not at the level same as pastors yet
so i dun tink i can anyhow interpret.
better safe than sorry.
yea n as ps. khong has said,
2007 will b a year of victory!
There will b breakout!
thank God that i'm no longer troubled by heart affairs.
i'm glad that He has used me and him greatly
to glorify His name.
let go and let God!
Amen!
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