Sunday, September 17, 2006
tis morning had to wake up early.
okie,i had a sort of nigtmare.
met a demon in my dream
n i was casting it out of my hse
in the name of Jesus.
woke up wif tireness.
seemed like i'd a battle.
spiritual battle...
went to giv tuition.
pulling my guitar along
wif a heavy handbag.
'good' lah cos all those livin in yishun
gt no free time to help mi fix my guitar.
had to bring to church to ask for help.
but be4 tt,
i had to go to work.
so carried it on my back.
terribly heavy n my handbag was so heavy.
no choice so i hung ard my neck.
looked like a dog.
every passer-by was givin mi weird stares.
i was sweating n panting
cos my students stayed in sumwhere far far behind
in the estate.
after finishing tutoring, i walked all the way back to northpt.
quickly bought my lunch fr BK.
ate in bus interchange while waiting for bus.
damn kelianz okie?!
alamak...cos i was rushing for spiritual warfare course
at TCT bukit merah.
we learnt abt growing as a spirit being,
nature of spiritual gifts,
the ministry of healing etc.
was quite intense.
lasted from ard 1.40 pm to 8 pm.
but pastor roland's and hk's sessions were funny.
felt weird cos first time praying for others in particular ways
under no specific instruction of wad to pray for
by leaders or pastors...jus throughly by asking Holy Spirit.
God spoke to mi these 2 days thru visions.
they r clear but sumhw i was not assured of them.
hope God will show me even more clearly.
sam told me tt yvonne's testi gt chosen to b shared wif others.
i was realli happy n i cried due to strong emotions.
hahahz. so malu...
but i was realli v v v happy for her.
i did pray for her testi to b used on the baptism day.
cos i tink her life is a good living example to others.
yvonne had illness n she has to eat a lot of medicines daily.
her immune system is down too.
she cannot b under sunlight or do strenous exercises.
but one thing for sure is that God protects n loves her a lot!
God is even healing her slowly fr time to time
by cutting dw her medicine.
i believe one day, she'll b completely healed by God.
one incident tt i kept in my heart...
was back in kluster kamp tis yr.
we had physical structural training
which was very tough
(but not even 0.01% of wad Jesus went thru for us)...
yvonne didn't complain n even willing to undergo it
despite her illness.
we knelt down crawling across the bridge,
carrying big mineral water bottles wif water on a pole
on our shoulders...wif green beads on the ground.
sth tt's like wad Jesus actually went thru on the way to calvary
to b crucified on the cross.
our knees were bleeding due to the cuts made by green beans'
sharp edges...
but yvonne didn't giv in.
she pressed on til the end jus like many of us.
i was very encouraged by her faith.
when sam debrief us on that middle of the nite,
i was crying.
cos i saw how God has worked so amazingly in tis sis's, yvonne, life.
a long-term sick girl who's willing to giv her all to God!
there i was... a short-term sick girl (i lost voice n was unwell in camp)
looking at tis...God changed my heart.
tat's my defining moment. sounds funny, rite?
but it is certainly nt.
tt min, i told God secretly in my heart,
i want to serve n love Him faithfully
and i m serious about having a loving relationship with God!
really thank God for speaking to me
n also thank God for having tis sis to encourage me at all times!
yvonne oso shared her pro wif me n i shared mine to her.
not by coincidence, i realised we do hav common pro.
i dunno she did realise or nt.
lolz~
n like wad she said, our cg gt one common thing!
we love bubble tea! hahahz~
n i tot of one too!
we r all God's daughters (same gender)!
lolz~
ltr goin to meet ch for brunch den to church.
hope my guitar will b fixed by den,
which is nw in gloria's bro's hands.
ch lost his bible again.
win lor..nt first time liao.
pengz~
i sent out my baptism invitations
but seem like everyone's busy or wking on tt day.
hm...i prayed to God n surrendered to Him.
let Him decide whom shall come.
i m doin my best now.
i m wearing His garment...
looking more like Him every day, yea?!
hahahz~
I WANT to be like Jesus!
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