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Sunday, August 06, 2006

tis morning went to town wif dee laopoz.
cos she wanna get her necklace.
in the end, she decided nt to.
came to hav lunch n i ate a lot.
saw a very nice purple necklace.
i tot it's ugly n like aunty-type.
but i went to try n the effects were nice on mi.
dee oso said it's nice.
8 bucks...no money left 10 bucks in my wallet.
lolz~
asked dee to get it as my bdae present.
hope it'll b! lolz~
den walked by taka. went to its toy fair.
saw my fav hamtaro!
so cheap!
big big one selling at 15 bucks!
i bought the middle-sized one at 6 bucks!
hahahz~
take it as my bdae present for myself.
den went to cg.
today we had it at void deck!
was happy to c beth n tiff came.
sam shared on verses in Job (in today's 40 days prayer guide).
rmb i was so physically sick for tt few weeks.
i drifted away so far fr God
but i cried out to Him everyday n finally
i cldn't stand it so i asked Him for a word.
turned n flipped opened my bible.
there it was...the book of Job.
i read chap 1.
and today, sam shared on it!
it's like God has a purpose to remind mi.
Job was wealthy and had 10 children he loved.
But he was a fearful man who loved God more than anything.
every single day without fail,
he would pray to God even on behalf of his children.
God tested him by allowing Satan to destroy all his properties
and even caused all his children to die.
Job contracted serious illness n his body skin shd b rotting.
but he still gav thanks to God, praising n blessing God's name!
wad a faithful child of God!
i wanna be like him!
he was so righteous and faithful to God.
eventually, God blessed him even more
by multiplying his wealth and no. of his children
than ever before!
sam prayed for us after all the sharings we did.
i felt God's presence there so strongly.
tink everyone was crying out to God.
i realli had no idea hw long did we cry
or hw much tears we shed.
my parents n frens realli hurt mi a lot.
i nv realise til today.
everything had been buried deep dw into a corner of my heart.
but when sam prayed,
i felt tt pain in my heart.
so painful...
it realli realli realli hurt.
those unkind remarks and condemning words i heard fr them...
sam prayed that i'll love others.
becos God loves mi
all the more, i shd love the ppl ard mi.
i prayed for myself too.
i realli find it hard to love ppl but i realli wan to.
n in my vision, i saw God's hand holding a bottle filled with water.
He told me that bottle contains all my tears i've shed.
He knows it, has seen it and keeps it with Him.
He said that all my tears shed r nt in vain.
but they r shed for Him.
i dunno izzit i'm thinking too much.
but i know one day, if i c God...
i know n hope tt He'll tell mi the same things.
perhaps it's the Holy Spirit working within mi.
Hallelujah!
den went back wif yvonne n beth.
met mao to buy jy's bdae card.
chose a sheep card
cos we r the sheep n God's our shepard.
i tink tis card is meaningful!
lolz~
den met seraph for dinner.
den dunno y, accidentalli met joshua n his mum too.
all eating on same table.
lolz~funny
den i was so pathetic.
gt 'abandoned' by mao n seraph.
both toking on phones non-stop.
toking to girls lah!
lolz~
den i cldn't stand it n started to make noises.
lolz~
seraph passed his phone to let mi chat wif his girl fren
for a while.
hahahz~ tt's how i gt to know one more girl!
lolz~
yeah went hm quite late.
very very tire!
kim ah!
do QT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm goin to do too!
hahaz~
ask mi y m i so 'Jesus freak'?
i gt onli one ans tat is
God loves mi n i realli love Him too!
Amen!!!

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