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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

received a mail fr pastor roland again.
tis time it's ard midnite.
okie a serious one.
sound like a reprimanding type.
tink spiritual ah gong is upset by our behaviours n actions.
i felt so guilty after reading the mail.
i felt tt i'm related to the all wrong things pointed out.
immediately seek forgiveness from God.
firstly, pastor found out tt many donation cards were empty.
shd nt b my fault but i lost mine...
tt means i nv contribute much
even though i donated a few bucks.
i m one of those who caused so many needy ppl to lose financial help.
secondly, pastor heard of some of us complaining wearin cluster tee
for national prayer at SIS ltr at evening.
i rmb i was one of those who complained to sam tt
the red cluster tee was so ugly n dun wanna wear it.
see...i'm one of those guilty ones again.
thirdly, pastor reminded us to giv priority to non-christian frens
for planetshakers ultraviolet party.
but i bought a few for mao, yun and yan on sat nite.
i nv bring a single unsaved fren.
my cg's younger sis r all bringing frens.
but i dun even hav one.
i shd b ashamed of myself.
i've been praying day n nite for miracles fr God.
i've been doin all my best to invite my frens.
but nth seems to work.
i'll nv giv up!
i dun wan to giv excuses to God.
i admit i'm wrong in so many ways.
Forgive mi, Father.
i know i hav to pray, reflect myself and response to You daily.
realli hav to examine my heart thoroughly and repent my old ways.

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