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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

quite a while nv blog.
one week ago, i fell sick.
was having high fever, sore throat n headaches...
it's sort of attack by satan.
cos last fri was my cluster camp.
i prayed for healing.
my cg, mylene, kim and abel prayed for mi too!
thanks alot to them.
fri nite i went to my church cluster camp
at jin tai sec.
my voice was lost.
reached there and began the structural experience training.
it was tough.
i was in the grp led by my cgl, sam.
charis went hm cos she had fever.
her younger sis n cousin were still there
so helped to take care of them.
had to walk quickly ard the sch for ard 7 times
without talking.
it was tiring.
next we were blindfolded
and walked to the field to carry chair etc
without putting them dw.
like punishment.
den we were taken to the 4th floor
with our eyes blindfolded.
den we were asked to jump fr dunno where.
cos we cldn't c,
we didn't know hw high it was.
it took mi lots of time n courage n faith
to jump from the edge.
after jumping, i realised it's jus jumping fr a bench.
after tt, we were asked to enter into a classroom.
inside there's a fake set-up of our funeral.
it seemed so real.
we looked into the coffin n saw our faces inside.
cos there's a big mirror there.
i learnt sth in this station.
it's to die to ourselves and to live a holy life.
a righteous life that we can account to God
after our death.
n to leave our loved ones with good memories n examples
if one day shd we depart fr earth.
the final station was the most cruel and torturing station.
we were given a choice to give up or to take it to the end.
i chose to continue so was at the final stop.
we were asked to kneel down.
carried a bamboo pole
, with 2 water bottles filled wif water at each end of pole,
on our shoulders.
crawled across a bridge.
it seemed easy but when it's my turn.
i realised it's very very painful.
to make it worse, the ground was filled wif green beans
n i had leg cramps.
the green beans really hurt my knees.
i wanna giv up but i looked dw to the ground.
guess wad i saw?
i saw blood...
the ppl who crossed the bridge before mi were injured
but they nv giv up.
so i shdn't.
moreover, they were bleeding.
i was onli feeling painful.
i tot of Jesus.
He suffered so much for us when he carried the cross.
He was kneeling on ground wif sand, rocks etc
n carried a heavy cross wif ppl beating on him.
wad i was doin was nth compared to wad he did for us.
i tot of this so i decided not to giv up.
i raised n looked infrnt n saw pastors at the end,
waiting for us.
i crawled towards them without stopping.
when i finished, i stood up n gav thanks to God.
cos i onli had bruises and nv bleed.
pastor lai fun gav mi a hug.
i nearly cried cos now i fully understand
the pain Jesus went thru for mi.
i cldn't even take such a small suffering
yet He endured so much for me.
thank you so much, Jesus!
i didn't hav my dinner.
by the time we finished the training,
it was ard 3+ am.
i went to drink one can of soya bean milk,
ate 3 bread buns n showered.
zzz at 6 am.
woke up next morning.
we went out to do kind acts
to collect smiles of ppl we helped
for the 7000 smile project.
night came n there was a buffet for us.
we had glitter idol competition.
bro jia sheng was our team's representative
he sang a love song which he composed for God.
it was romantic n very very very nice.
n u know wad?!
he won the most talented for our team!
hallelujah!!!
he's so talented in music area n
hope tt God will use him greatly in this area.
the camp ended n we went for church service together.
i lost my voice.
saw daniel n seraph at camp.
they were stunned at my voice.
haahahz~
after church, we went for a surprise bdae party
for our youthnet pastor, pastor eugene!
it was his 50th bdae and was a BIG surprise for him.
His spiritual children and us pledged our loyalty to him n God
by doing funny dance moves for "i will follow him".
lolz~
n we cldn't stop luffing.
went back hm quickly.
my dad called me n i knew he was worried so i walked quickly.
den a rat ran across my shoe.
amazingly, i didn't scream or fear.
mayb cos i onli had my dad in mind.
so i chiong my way hm.
jus didn't care abt tt stupid rat.
yucks!
den ytd morning gt lab session in sch.
my voice hasn't come back n
i sound totally like a man now.
my classmates luffed at me lah.
"thanks alot" guys!
michelle said if ppl c n hear my voice,
they will mistook mi as a transsexual
cos my voice is so 'man'.
aloy n lyly kept luffing.
wah pengz!
hz was excited abt fishes.
he said he wanna breed fighting fish.
trying to 'play God'.
lolz~
went hm n slept til 9 pm.
nv study.
realli no mood to study cos
of my voice n tireness.
aiyoz!
i pray tt i'll b healed soon.

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