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Monday, May 29, 2006

had a cold war wif parents last week...
really was damn low in spirit.
dunno wad to do except kept praying.
i gt so disappointed wif my family.
due to many reasons.
religious matters, stress, the way they teach mi,
their expectations etc...
my dad turned so violent to mi on a day.
i locked myself in rm.
dunno wad to do.
scared til cried.
den kept praying.
since after tt day,
the cold war started.
my dad also scolded my maternal side
for interfering to clear up the mess.
i was realli buai song.
but gt to obey my parents.
my aunt counselled mi.
she's really a woman of faith.
my family doesn't understand mi
n dunno hw to teach or love mi.
but one thing i'm sure is tt
God is the one who completely understands me!
thru tis difficult period, He's here.
sumtimes i wonder...
if not for God,
i'd hav ended my life.
cos it would b meaningless.
really grateful to Him.
i skipped cell grp due to hmwks n oso cos of family pro.
still haven settle yet.
dun wan my dad to scold mi.
but made sam angry.
sorry.
God used my bro n sis in Christ to encourage mi
thru their words.
like wad jw n sy tagged.
other frens too. my sis n jac r sum of those.
ytd afternoon went to church n God spoke to mi
thruout tt whole service!
Hallelujah!
the worship songs seem to b God's speaking.

I walk by faith
Each step by faith
To live by faith
I put my trust in You
Every step i make
Is a step of faith
No weapon formed against me
Shall prosper
Every prayer i make
Is a prayer of faith
If my God is for me
And who can be against me

I serve a faithful God
For i find my rest
In His faithfulness

You hold my life in Your hand
Drawing me closer to You

Pastor Khong was back to s'pore.
he looked so refreshed after a short break!
i felt honoured...hehez
why?
cos i was sitting behind him.
Charissa said tt blessing would flow down to mi.
lolz~
hope so!
den he preached a msg on Jabez's prayer.
o manz! it was great.
i luv tt prayer.
the prayer goes like tis...
Oh God, You will bless me
and enlarge my territory.
Let Your hand be with me
and keep me from harm
so that i'll b free from pain.
yes tt's the prayer i need!
i need His blessings in my life. I need His miracles!
i want to b used by Him greatly n conquer for Him.
win lost souls and shall c endless border of the saved ones!
i need His protection against the evil ones
as i do His will!
i need His healing to free my sufferings
while i run the race for Him!
pastor said mus pray it daily.
day n nite.
i'm gonna do it.
yes, i believe God will answer tis prayer.
He has answered Jabez's request.
n He will ans mine too!
let's press on wif our prayers
til miracles happen!
Amen!

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