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Saturday, December 10, 2005

5th dec
i woke up
fr afternoon nap.
nw it's 8pm exactly.
i had a dream.
dreamt tt his mum called mi
n asked mi to bring him to his bro,jy's church...
in my dream, i spoke alot wif his mum.
but cldn't rmb the details.
is God trying to hint mi?
to c the salvation of him?
den i went off to do my report.
another day passed.
i slept at 4 am?
cos i was doin sth for kelvin.
hoping to bring back his passion for God.

6th dec
cldn't rmb wad i did today.
tink sch ended at 6 pm.
after tt, met cs, yl, js n ruth
to go back to yishun.
on the way out,
ruth accidentally pulled dw my shirt...
i was so embarrassed...
cos behind us was a gang of guys...
all staring.
summore, alot of ppl goin hm liao...
dotz...
met kelvin n had a talk wif him.
den went hm n started to chiong report.
life's so tiring.

7th dec
after sch, i met yiwei to tok abt my gen12 trip.
i found tt the values of my church r nt so called
to be in my campus.
i noe God placed mi in nyp for a reason.
but still, i feel tt i'm forced to.
n i realli dun like it.
i tried to control myself n asked myself to tink for a while.
i dunno wad to do nw.
asking God for directions.
i oso had a chat wif sam over the phone.
she saw the situation i'm in.
den went for cca meeting.
jc n yl's bro were nt there.
i became secretary of the day.
it ended quite late.
n i was damn tired.
i went hm to start another report.
forcing my eyes wide open til
middle of nite again...

8th dec
after sch,
i went hm to eat dinner n zzz for one hr.
was late to meet pastor n cg.
rushed to swensens n met them.
had a long talk.
i reached hm at ard 12 am.
went to bathe n wanted to do report.
but i was damn physically tired.
so i decided to giv up.
n i went to zzz.

9th dec
woke up n realised i was goin to b late.
rushed to sch for lecture.
after tt, i went to do report at com lab alone.
tt damn diskette of mine.
used halfway n format was spoilt.
i cldn't save my report.
i had typed so long n it's onli left with one discussion...
i quickly called up lyly n yt to help.
luckily, yt gt extra diskette.
thanks alot frens!
went to print n went to hand in reports wif yt n fiona.
met jac n ting to shop at bugis.
i miss dee alot.
dunno wad happened to us...
dee, u may nt c our blogs anymore.
jus wan to tell u tt u r my best fren.
n thank you for being a gd fren to mi all these yrs.
will u be back for us?
went to bugis cafe to eat dinner.
omy gosh...
guessed whu i saw...
it's them (her's') again.
ting said tt she's my 'enemy'.
hahaahaz~
funny!
tt place is abit unhygienic.
small cockroaches were flying ard us.
caterpillar in our salad.
o my...
we went away w/o finishing.
n i was screaming all the way.
er xin lor!
saw lyly n her mum n sis.
hahahz~
they bought sum clothes
n went back hm.
i prayed for v long
before goin to sleep.
tink i had a breakdw...
kept crying.
so tire...so stressed n so disappointed over stuffs.
slept earlier.
ard 1+am.

10th dec
woke up at 5 am.
getting prepared for Big run.
met kelvin at 6.10 am but i was late for 10 min.
went to pasir ris park.
my tribe was there.
announcements were made.
tml we're moving to expo!
hallelujah!
we prayed alot.
i had a prayer walk 1st.
i talked to God seriously n asking Him
to bless our church, ourselves n our leaders.
waited for a long time.
3 ppl were chosen fr my cell to run.
sarah, mi n charis.
we were in grp 3.
the grp tt had to run for the most difficult route.
we had to run ard the paya lebar air base.
surrounded by dense forests n the road was rocky.
i was very surprised to b selected to hold the baton.
cos i'm the slowest runner there.
the baton's v heavy.
during the run, i prayed to God silently.
after the run, went to tampines mac
to hav lunch.
heard sam tt we r goin to b busy.
it's so busy.
dunno whether will i b selected for choir next week.
if selected, den goin to b even busier.
i wonder whether i can cope or nt.
went to play bumper car wif the rest.
drove wif dora.
n we jus banged our way out!
lolz~
since God has given mi so many things,
i believe tt He'll giv mi enuff time to do.
His strength n wisdom will b given to mi!
Amen!
c weekdays i gt sch n reports to chiong.
sat morning gt gen12 meeting.
den will hav cg.
followed by cg meeting.
sun morning gt church's lessons, SOL...
afternoon gt service.
den will hav cluster activities.
pengz~
when will i hav a time for myself.
hahahaz~
i guess i'll b tired.
everyday onli slping on an average of 3.5 hrs.
cms gt no time to do...
i tot of y i was placed in nyp biotech.
tink God has a purpose.
thru my reports,
i realised tt i hav so many to report in my life.
1st i hav to report to my Heavenly Father.
2nd r my spiritual family n my own family.
3rd is to report to myself.
4th is to report for sch.
lolz~
reports hav meaning.
reporting means to account.
it means to take up responsibilities.
reporting is stressful, tiring n boring.
but it's a price i hav to pay for following God.
i nv regret it.
whenever i tink wad God does for us etc.
i will smile n say "I love Him!".
suddenli rmb it's sis's bdae today.
it's oso jw n jy's mum's bdae.
such a coincidence!
Happiez Birthdaez to both of u!
cheerz!

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