Saturday, December 03, 2005
a period of difficulties...i'm facing so much so much nw...frens...family...all sorts of relationship...studies...health...haiz~making mi feeling even more tire each day.i'm sick of everything.forcing myself to b happy n cheerful.keeping my smile on.mayb i'm fake.yes, i am.i wanna cry.but i dunno y...my tears r dried up.i can't even cry out...i dunno wad's happening.God's testing mi?i feel so lonely.so down.so tire.so f up.so weak.so pathetic...jus like an abandoned dog.looking for a place to settle dw.i found God.but i still feeling tis way.i dun feel like toking to anyone.everyone is fake.jus a few days...n so much happened.whu is there for mi?doubt even my closest frens noe.onli God noes n i noe.my heart's bleeding.it's been stabbed again n again.i'm nt immature.i'm serious.i noe myself.better den anyone...i wish i can cry tonitez.
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