Monday, November 28, 2005
diarrhea was horrible n getting worse the nite b4...i cried til 5+ am.so weak, tire n upset...upset over friendships n stuffs.tinking of him too.i prayed to God asking for help.tears jus kept flowing n cldn't b stopped.i feel Your presence, Lord.i know You're out there...i cannot see You at allbut i know You're always there.feeling even weaker when i woke up ytd morning...no strength to go to sitex wif yl n gang...dee, jac n jw did msg mi to ask hw i was...i woke up at times to reply them.n i slept all the way til evening.got up to start my sch works n reports.saw jh online.he asked mi to go BK wif him to hav dinnern to study.yl was online too.he solved my com pro n i cld view my e-practical.thanks to yl.ivan did helped abit.thanks too!went to BK n ate.chatted abit n finished one organic chem tutorial onli...seemed so easy to do but no reference to refer...tt's y i took a long time.stupid sch...gav such lousy short-detailed lecture notes.all info hav to b found by us students...so difficult to study.all time spent on doin reports.n still wan us to do more researching.siao.summore i'm not a pure sci student b4.realli dun understand wad they're teaching.suxky.jh's still the same.always shooting mi ever since the 1st day we met.bad of him.he's sick too.having fever n headaches.lolz!2 sicky frens...funny sia~looking after each other.went hm at ard 11 pm.guessed who i saw.jw!behind him were jy, shu yun n foster.onli greeted them.jw asked i'm okie or nt.actualli, i wasn't alrite.my stomach was hurting again.i told him tis n i walked off.i cldn't stand the pain.i saw his smile fr a distance away.well, God...You seem to b playing wif mi.not destined to b together.but y when i wanted to c him so much,u let him to appear...haiz~i did took a second glance at him before i turned n walked away.i saw his smile.so bright n guessed he's happy today.went hm n started to do my works againin spite of the pains in my stomach.i started to feel very weakn vomitted my dinner out.yucks!terrible...needed to complete my report's guidelines so i forced myself to stay up til so late...tml i guessed i'm goin to skip sch.no mc given by doc...idiot...heck care liaoz...a guy i know msg mi in msn ard 2+am.my status was busy n he's asking mi abt his prom clothes...pengz~so inconsiderate nia...i'm sick n trying to rush my works...n there u r trying to talk sum external stuffs.nt i dun care abt ubut pls...tink abt my situation.aiyoz~shu yun msg mi a nite msg.she asked mi to get well soon.so sweet of her.nv forget mi...i was very touched.thank you!tink i hav to sleep now.tml i shall continue to finish my reports.
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