Saturday, November 12, 2005
went to meet jh for lunch.poor thing no money.but i'm poor too.i lent him to eat.ended up left wif 5 bucksin my wallet when goin hm fr church.was late for one hr plus.sry tt i made him wait.cos i'm feeling giddy n havin headaches again.dunno y...these few 2 weeks, i've been feeling tis way.goin to faint like tt.no strength.jus will lie dw n rest.nt tt i'm lazy or wad...studied abit on my way to church.abit lonely in church.saw my cg, ray n dawn at rows infrt of mi.ray becomes gd-looking.hahaz~he did walked up to greet mi.i didn't notice it's him.lolz~so lonely at church.dun hav a sense of belonging there.but i noe God has a reason for mi to b there.tt's y i nv leave tis church.i'm staying no matter wad.nearli cried at end of service.pastor eugene's preaching on hw to b a gd neighbour.at the end, he asked us to repent.the ways we treat our families n ppl ard us.i tot of my own big family.those who love mi n those who dislike mi...their faces came into my mind at tt instant.i said to God in my heart tt i'll forgive them.forgive wad they did...i wanna love ppl ard mi...everyone!i noe i sux at times.i love myself before others.i dunno hw to treat others nicely.i dunno hw to communicate well or clique wif ppl ard.but i'm learning to love.cos God is love n He first loves us all!after service, we went for training for the big run to expoat east coast park which is jus beside church.our tribe's quite large.consisting of male wking adults n plms n st. nicks girls.since it's large,we r coverin a longer dist for the big run.8-10 km i heard.goin to b divided among us.we did stretching exercises n ran.my cg joined the average running grp.it's so tiring.we ran for 3.5 km.nearly took my life.running so fast.w/o drinks nor rest.i admitted tt i did walked on my way back.daniel was there to support his cg.actualli, was there to support the girl he likes.jia jia lah him!lolz~den ended n i drank finished my water at one go.went to eat at foodcourt.den rushed hm wif beth.chatted quite much on bus.long time nv c her.she becomes so sexy n healthy!lolz~can c a change in her.i took train back when we parted.so sad.i sweated too much after tt run.sat dw on the seat.passangers in my row seated a few seats away fr mi...quickly moved away...pengz!for the first time, i encountered tis.so lonely n rejected lor.haizbut nvm God's still wif mi.i wanted to apologise to those passengers.sorry for makin u all to suffer by my bad smell.went hm.haven bathe n still bloggin...goin to do tutorials.tml's outing at sentosa...dunno will i b able to wake up...too tire le.
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