Saturday, November 26, 2005
i'm down with diarrhea for over 3 days.nw running with fever.having sharp pains ard my stomach area.so terrible.sianz...gie they all went to pulau ubin.dunno whu can bring mi to c doc.n i feel embarrassed to bother gie again.looked ard tink ard...nearest fren...mayb tried to beg jw lor...asked jac but she's bz wif bf...understandable...haiz~color's most impt in life.bor bian.luckily, he came.clinics in my neighbourhood were all closed.on weekend nites, they r all closed...kl msg mi while i was looking for clinic.he said he felt cheated cos i told him tml i cmi for outing.carmen n the rest were nt free too.he's angry wif us.he said i ps him a few times.but i'm realli sry.i told him tt i'm realli sick.he said even if one day, we r free,he'll nt come out wif us anymore.wtf?!!!is he still a frenz?!i'm so disappointed n sad at his reply.shocked mi.y r my frens like tt?they r so selfish.always tinking of their feelings...hav they ever tink of mi?hav they tot of my feelings n difficulties?m i nt a human to them?i'm nt a robot.i need time to do sch works.i need time to rest n sleep.i need frens to support mi.nw it seems like 'friends' is jus a superficial term to mi...when ppl need help, they'll call u as frens.when they dun need help, they call u as shit...haiz~wad a life on earth...frens always say tis...'take care'but do they realli mean it in their hearts or jus 2 wrds tt come to their minds?i know i often ask my frens to take carebut i promise tt it's fr bottom of my heart.not jus wrds fr my mouth...u may tink i'm lame...nt serious to b a gd fren.but i never ever treat frens like used tissue papers.i admit i may treat majority of guys nt to b too close.tt's cos i wan to maintain a distance btw men n women.i may behave like a guy but afterall, i still gt emotions of a woman.it's not gd to b close to a guy.everyone shd understandn i'm a serious person when comes to relationship stuffs.no matter izzit frenship, bgr or kinship...i'll nv treat it like rubbish.well... but i'm really disappointed wif frens now...
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