Tuesday, November 01, 2005
last 2 weeks of hol...dunno hw to spend...wanna treasure it but dunno wad to do abt it.JH intro mi to b a part-time actress...for a day nia.the pay's machiam peanut.so less...30 bucks for 12 hrs...i earned ard 20+ bucks onli.saw a few celebrities...met cs n his classmates there too.daniel's so frenzly.i began chatting wif him.no wonder ying's quite close wif him.he's so chattable.nice chap!had been goin out wif jac lao poz...wif JH n JW.lao poz's busy wif her bf sumtimes.so left mi wif the 2 guys.we normalli catch movies together.sis oso gt came once wif us.i went to work as sales promoter under the hot sun...wif deez, jac n liting...quite tough.dun like tt job.n the boss was nt happy cos the sales was bad.we haven even gt our pay yet...one crazy army guy came to get my no.of cos i rejected him w/o sec tot.so despo...hahaz~y all my tao hua's' r so lan...it's better nt to hav one nia.saw zhang zhi chen too!lolz~he's so short...n mind u...he's walking beside us.such a coincidence.he's takin lift secretly to avoid crowds.i was urgent n needed to go to ladies.n we walked past one another.wow!!!the 4 of us went to esplanade.we took alot of pics of ourselves...all zi lian...lolz~the scenery's so beautiful...too bad.everywhere's full of couples.we were so embarassed so we walked away.next time, my future husband mus bring mi there too.hahahz~tt's wad i told the 3 gers!today went to watch all abt lovewif joo, gie, tyng n via.quite touching...did cried abit.but the girls sitting behind us r so...bitchy...kept on laughing loudly for nth n kicked my seat.mad de!!!worse den mi lor...currently...i becum more independent.i realised alot of things...i mus b alone at times.to handle it.no one else can help too.hav been reading on books.purpose driven life n boy meets girl.halfway le...thses 2 books r great.they r nt v touching stories.but they inspired mi to do the rite things.to c wad's purposeful in my life.teach mi how to love.i started to treasure ppl ard mi.him...i dunno if i still like him?shdn't b but sumtimes the feelings will come back.sumtimes i seem to forget him.dunno y oso.after so much...i began to learn.learnt how to take a step back.n i dun wanna take any initiative anymore.jus let it b.let God lead my way.
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