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1 Chronicles 4:10 "Oh God, that You would bless me and enlarge my territory!
Let Your hand be with me , and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain. " And God granted his request.
Monday, October 10, 2005
online til 5 am ytd...so i slept til 11 am tis morning...gt chased out of my hse by mum.she forced mi to go out wif fren to eat...so i msn my sis online.she met mi for lunch n went to her hse n slacked.i ate alot for dinner...den walked all the way back hm fr chong pang.nth to do nia.came online again.den went to watch television show.den came back again.i jus cried...dunno y dun ask y...i called up jac lao poz...luckily she's there for mi.there's no one i can tok to at tis hr nw.i jus need a good frenz by my side.i feel like...feel like drinking...to make myself drunk...n nv to tink so much...i'm sinning again.i'm being tortured...by myself...zi zuo zi shou...my heart's really broken.i dunno wad to do.dunno how to do.cannot do anything.praying every nitez...hoping every nitez...God, when will i pass tis test???i can't take it anymore...my tears...my pains...God, where are You?!!!i need You...God...haiz~i don't want to stray away from You.will my suffering which i made it myself ends?i know...for sure...everyone will say that i make it myself...but as if i can control everything...i feel like 'killing' myself...feel like shouting out...all my anger...all my sadness...all my tireness...sorry God...sorry to those who support mi...i've let u all dw...disappointing...i'm doing my best.all the best to me!!!
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