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1 Chronicles 4:10 "Oh God, that You would bless me and enlarge my territory!
Let Your hand be with me , and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain. " And God granted his request.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
woke up early today...needed to go to nyp for my orientation.woke up my bro n made breakfast for him cos he's goin to sch too.he finalli recovered fr the chicken pox!met ying,cs,mh n vin to sch.found out tt all of us in diff classes.ying was wif cs.i was wif jia wen.vin was alone.slyvia,mh n the other indian gurl were separated as well...at least i still gt sumone in class i already know.quite lucky.my class is v shy.damn quiet.nt enthu at all.all the guys r so gay.quiet n nv help out during games.haiz~predicted tt our class will lose for the orientation competition.hopeless.lolz~
noticed tt my class n cs's class r full of short ppl...all of us r in the same range.onli a few of us r tall.i m like one of the tallest gurls in class.i nv hav tis xperience b4.muahahahz~i'm bad...my ogl suggested to go to mac to eat.met saw hui.surprisingly,i met shawn n him too.nv expected it...my mind went blank...i dunno hw to react at tt time.mayb if he greeted mi,i might hav smile back.bt he did sth tt realli upsets mi.i was realli in pain.he treated mi worse than a stranger.i'm invisible.yes...tt's wad i am to him.saw hui saw n pulled mi out of tt situation.we went away den i cried on saw hui's shoudlers outside mac...haiz~heart-breaking...den i went to eat my lunch wif classmates.jac msg mi n i told her my pro.
den we had ice-breaker all those lame stuffs...lolz~nt fun.v boring n sianz.cs dropped a water bomb onto mi.toot!my pants,shirt n even undergarments were all wet.damn cold lor.walked back like tis...pengz~
xz called jiawen to meet up after our telematch was over.i tot onli joo,xz n saw hui.den i saw shawn.so i knew he was there too.i avoided him.i told saw hui tt i wanted to go 1st.i'm nt in a mood to b prepared to c him.i will jus cry.bt y?his frens r my frens...i cannt do anything.afternoon he avoided mi.i noe tt he dun wanna wish to c mi.i know n i'm nt an unreasonable person.fine...i will make myself scram.pls lor.no one asked him to wait.dunno y he waited wif such unwillingness n unhappiness.y so forced to do so?!no one asked him to stay.izzit cos he wanna let others c tt he's nt heartless to mi.pls...in tis way,sorry to say tis,i tink tt he's a hypocrite...so fake.
took mrt back to yishun.i was waiting at the end of platform n dunno y he came over.wth!i waited there 1st...he realli wan to force mi to no end izzit.i did nt want to board tt train bt saw hui pulled mi to another cabin.luckily,there's still saw hui wif mi.thanks saw hui!u r a great frenz! ;)
went to tyng's hse to get cert n cried.haiz~i already did my best bt it's him who rejected all my kindness.i cannt do anything.in future,wad i can do...???i dunno...playin hide n seek since he wants to.deez msg mi tt she was upset tt i changed so much after my broke up.i m no longer tt always cheerful ger she knew.sorry...i dun want to b in tis way too.bt i still need time to heal.i've been hurt too deeply.no way can i recover tt soon.no way m i goin to trust guys ard mi.no way can i smile n b lamez...sorry.i hope all my friends can understand mi. sumtimes when i need frens to cheer mi up,there's no one by my side.jus alone...nt saying tt all of u r bad bt jus tt everyone has their own lives to live.i understand too. went back hm quite late...abt midnite plus.wah!tml still need to wake up early for orientation.tink better go to zzz...lolz~cya!
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