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Sunday, October 18, 2009

this week is hectic.
works r piling up and facing exams n stuffs...
went to service this morning
n i was really shocked.
God spoke to me regarding my thinkings.
He really knows and understands fully.
Youthbuzz bulletin was talking about friendships.
hm...n tat's one of the issues on my mind for this week.
n it was my msn nick!
God is so accurate when He speaks.
a friend's love is truly great!
tt's y i should love and treasure my friends!

throughout the svc, his name was mentioned so many times.
tt's cos pastor was preaching on that chapter of this biblical hero.
i wasn't really prepared to hear that but i hav to control myself.
somehow, i wonder...
y God can still calm me down.
is He tryin to tell me that i shd forgiv n love him as a fren
even when he has hurt me n betrayed my trust in him?
seriously...i dunno
n he's avoiding me now.
a bas**** he is but still...
i felt bad to hate him.
m i too kind or crazy?!
or God has a purpose for doing it in this way?
Holy Spirit, please tell me n help me to overcome this situation.
im brave enough to face it
but i wonder will he b able to
since he's bad.
i tink that no one ard me wld support my decision made
as they jus tink im crazy or stupid.
but im assured somehow by God that i've peace in carrying out.
i jus dunno y. perhaps it's really God's intention
to make us learn.
i dun tink im able to change anything
but i trust in the power of Holy Spirit
who is able n mighty in all things!
He will do great jobs and changes people's lives!
i hope he will definitely change for the better
n im sure that
I LOVE HIM AS A FRIEND! =)
i just can't bring myself to dislike or hate him.

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6:18 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Now i really know the meaning of "friends".
i know that i can be a friend
but i oso learnt that there are "friends"
around me.
they r just for show.
when i really need them,
no one is really there.
im sad about this
but nothing i can do.
i dun tink that friends will really ask me to do this
if they really love me.
i can only learn to love myself first
cos i dun tink im able to trust anyone ard anymore.
if they r really friends,
they will help me n not just leave me aside
when im hurt n disturbed emotionally.
i gt nothing to comment and dun wish for anyone to comment.
i doubt anyone will read this post.
only God understands...

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11:54 PM

Thursday, July 02, 2009

I watched the finale of Rosy Business!
Nice drama from hong kong!
Really admired the courage n intelligence of Mdm Po Kei!
Not to mention, my fav. actor, ron ng oso acted in this drama!
This drama revolves ard family, province, war and business etc.
Excellent!
Watch it n it's definitely not a drama on martial arts!

Now, im watching Chinese Paladin 3!
Super nice n i've waited for almost a year!
It's finally out!
It's better than Chinese Paladin, previous series.
There're more twists n turns in Part 3.
It takes you deep into their own stories of each character's past life.
You'd be drawn into it unknowingly!
hehez n of cos, my fav actor, wallace huo, acted in it!
my bro's fav actor is hu ge.
and i prefer CP3's female lead.
She's more natural in her acting
and more suitable as a pair of couple wif hu ge!
really nice but youtube haven upload more of the episodes.
guessed hav to wait for more users to upload more. =(
this is a story of love and fighting against demons.
watch it if you like extreme martial arts eg. flying in the sky etc.
LOLz...you'll enjoy it if you're like me,
loving EXTREME martial arts.
hahaz!

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11:53 PM

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

hurray!
i received a letter from UniSIM!
they offered me provisionally a seat in degree of communications
which i've to reserve by end of this month
by paying S$500 first.
however, i'm still waiting for the mass comm offer by SIMglobal.
i tink that the given time for me to make a decision
is too in a rush.
i dunno wad to do now.
jus like sherry,
if God has given me the position,
i really got to trust in Him completely
in my finances and new career.
i've to start finding a new related job
with good pay n timing tt allows me to study at the same time.
may God bless me!
i need courage to move on in the next phase of my life.
excitement and anxiety on finances are now crashing
in my life!
i got to remain calm n figure ways out,
seeking God's wisdom n favor upon me.
i calculated tt i need at least S$25k for degree course fee
and at the same time, return ~S$1400
for my poly sch fee.
such a huge sum n my parents r nt being very understanding.
i dun wan to giv up easily.
my life on earth is only to b lived once.
i dun wan to have regret anymore n shall live by faith! =)
jia you, inessabelle!

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11:47 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

i went to explore geylang's red light district ytd.
it was after work tgt wif a few colleagues.
TH, whom was back from his studies in america,
bought a new car.
he drove us there.
W, WY, YF and me (4 ladies) plus uncle IK.
squeezing into the car and packed ourselves like sardines.
the weather was so hot despite the air-conditioning.
moreover, the roads were jammed almost throughout whole journey.
we arrived and walked thru small lane to get there.
we started to fill our empty stomach first.
first stop: dim sum stall!
all the dim sum there r so delicious esp the char siew buns!
their drinks r served in plastic bowls instead of cups
which made them come in larger volumes
and able to last til u finished all of ur dim sum.
one bad thing is tt its not a buffet.
every single basket of dim sum costs money!
second stop: durian stall!
uncle KI has nv eaten durians before as he's from japan.
we ordered second most top-rated durian, cat mountain king!
my first time trying n it's super expensive.
$15 for 1 kg. the one we had is 2 kg.
we asked fr discounts n stall owner charged us $26.
i had an itchy throat plus stomach cramps so onli ate one of it.
made stupid joke out of it.
i told them tt the one i ate is equal to having a macdonald's kid meal!
so expensive!
uncle KI doesn't like durians.
all the foreigners in our department dun like them at all. hahahz~
he said tt it tasted like wasabi plus sashimi plus soy sauce!
stunned!
we saw a group of thai ladies in the stall.
their make-up was super extra thick.
meant to attract men.
third stop: rochester beancurd stall! (dunno is the name spelt rite?)
it's so famous. it's my first time eating it there.
i've been to the other branch but the geylang's one is nicer
as it is not too sweet!
the beancurd is really very smooth n soft!
fourth stop: walking down geylang red light district!
we walked down the streets of even no.
saw many houses wif red laterns,
indicating tt they're open for business.
we saw many groups of young NS men.
i stared at them. hahahz.
we were amazed tt they prefer older ladies.
i felt disgusted?!
the food stalls were occupied by many uncles now.
red light bosses were standing outside of their 'shops'.
it was still early at 10 plus pm.
fifth stop: driving down red light district
we walked back to get into TH's car.
he drove ard the streets and many clients n ladies were out.
it's ard 11 plus pm.
the streets were filled wif many old men and some ah bengs.
policemen were patrolling ard the main road.
there were many young phillipines/thai/indonesia girls ard my age.
such a sad thing.
they had very few clients n were standing outside or very long.
all the china ladies there r all quite obese
but i heard frm uncle KI tt due to skin color,
china ladies can earn the most.
uncle KI covered his face out of the sudden in the car.
he said tt he saw his jap fren outside.
he doesn't wan to make his fren embarassed
so he hid away.
hahahz so funny!
we toured for a total of ard 2 hrs at red light district
before heading to jurong east mrt station.
i managed to catch the train back home
n was sooooo sooooo tire!
shall post more abt adventurous outings soon.

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1:48 AM

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

o i have fallen deep in love with the korean version

of hana yori dango!

it's called "Boys over flower"!

2 episodes will be updated on youtube weekly.

i'm sooooo in love with actors kim bum and lee min hao!

so adorable, charming and handsome!

hehehz watching their acting cheers up my day!

trust me, u will fall in love and go gaga over these guys

if you're a girl!

i'm going to faint

and meet them in my lala land soon.

i haven start my work search for T47D breast cancer,

ChIP primers yet.

dunno if there's time or not.

haiz~

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11:07 PM

Saturday, February 14, 2009

o so upset!
IMEEM has some errors in my account!
i can't have the love songs embedded
into my blog!
argh~
nvm i can sing love songs to all of you
if you all treat me to karaoke!
hahahz~
i can imagine all the screaming looks
on all your faces!
jus kidding!

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10:06 AM

okays! Let me be your DJ in your house today!
love songs here are dedicated to all my loved ones
out there!
dun worry, the best is yet to come for you,
all the singles!
enjoy every moment with your partner today,
all the attached ones!
=)

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9:48 AM

haha i made a super funny comical poster for carmen
as part of her bdae gifts!
very HOT!
hahahz~
i forgt to scan it and upload into facebook.
dee and i will be so 'lonely'.
lonely, we are miss lonely~
haha we're going to spend Valentine's day wif each other.
tis yr we're downscaling to jus 2 of us.
most of the others r attached.
the singles dun like going out on this day
except for singles' parties at clubs tonight.
a minority of them are working.
ahhem like carmen lor!
hahaz wonder wad time is dee waking up?
if we can make it,
we'll go to northpoint later to meet MY BOYFRIEND!
hahahz
JJ Lin will be there at 2pm!
i pray that most of his fans will b on dates
den onli left the 2 of us wif him! =P
will that be possible?!
wonder wad can we do after that?
i feel like goin to the gym now
but so afraid of those guys there.
esp those ah beng type.
it's goin to rain soon.
spoiling a lil of my day. =(
no matter if you're single or attached,
i'm wishing all of you...
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!
MUACKS!

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9:22 AM